Eclipse

How does the sun find the strength to rise every morning even though it only gets to see the moon in passing?” –LT

 

As they say, it’s the same shit, different day. She swiped the screen of her mobile phone to stop her alarm. She groaned, begging the universe for five more minutes before she has to face another day.

Don’t get her wrong. Her work sucks as much as the next girl but she has great workmates turn friends. People who she can count on and people she spends her days and nights with.

It has become such a routine for over a year. Bathe, choose from her limited selection of clothes, if she didn’t oversleep, she’ll have time to do her make up (which was fewer and fewer these days).

She’ll take the commute like a robot programmed to do this route five times a week.

Most days she’ll get a good work station, a lucky one even. She’ll drink her coffee at the start of her shift and in the middle of working, she will find time to socialize with friends.

She’ll count herself lucky. Not every aspect of the production floor is perfect but it’s hard to find trustworthy fellows in this kind of environment. She should know. She’d been fooled once or twice.

She’s been known an observer. She would notice things most of her friends wouldn’t. For her, it’s both a gift and a curse. Nevertheless, it comes in handy.

Like during eclipses.

It’s what she calls those moments when in very rare times, the sun meets the moon in a short period of time. When the world around would stop, and it would just those two entities that would matter.

It’s both happiness and sadness. Happiness over that millisecond their lives touched and sadness that it couldn’t be more than that.

For her, the sadness would always win. But it’s better than nothing.

What is it they say? It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

She sees it on the floor almost everyday. And not everyone notices.

She knows of a girl who is yearning for someone to call her own. Of a girl who wants the innocent, old school relationship. She knows of a girl’s pain when someone took advantage of that vulnerability and twisted it to a temporary kind of bliss.

She would feel that pang of confusion and sadness the girl feels every time the girl turns pale whenever he’s near. When he greets her in the corridor and she has to pretend it didn’t bother her. A lost girl in her eclipse.

Now, she knows of a girl learning her lesson. She knows of a girl who is now aware that she deserves more. She knows of a girl who will not settle for less.

And now it’s time for some story telling..

Once upon a time, a princess gave everything for her prince. Her kingdom, her gold, her life. But for the prince, it wasn’t enough. Sadly, it has never been enough. He would leave for trips and tell the princess it was for him to be able to find himself.

Every time he leaves, the prince would come back with a maiden from another kingdom. He would flaunt it to the princess. He would apologize and because the princess didn’t know better back then, she would forgive and welcome him back with open arms.

Our little observer met the princess during the dark ages. When the wound was still fresh, and our princess would often cry herself to sleep. When the prince and Snow White walked around the kingdom showing off their relationship, she cannot imagine what the princess felt.

She cannot imagine how hard it is for the princess to wake up every morning knowing that when she arrives to the floor, she would see Snow White and her prince together.

She would marvel at how brave the princess is becoming. She would wonder how this princess can endure this long, dark eclipse looming over her. And she would say how proud she is of the princess, despite everything she had to encounter everyday, she held her head up high like the queen she is.

 

She would shake her head. How silly is this? But those were just two of maybe a hundred of eclipses happening around her. It was two of those she cares most about.

These are solar eclipses. Where despite the darkness that tries to block their light, it will end the sun looking more majestic than ever. The lost girl and the broken princess would come out of this. And they would find someone who would let them shine.

The shift ends as the clock strikes one. Everyone would retire to the locker room, tired and ready for rest.

The observer would grab her ringing mobile phone as the screen flashes a picture of her sun and her, together. She’ll answer the call. And upon hearing a simple hello from the other line, her eclipse would start and her heart would skip a beat.

Happiness for having someone she believes she doesn’t deserve but still loves her unconditionally. Sadness for they are 300 miles away from each other.

In the end, the sadness would be overwhelming. But not for long…

Day 7 – Five pet peeves

Day 7 – Five pet peeves

 

Why only five? Haha. I admit it, I can be a high maintenance companion and I do have some pet peeves that can put be in a very awkward situation with other people.

1.  Repeating things

 

When I’ve said, I’ve said it. I can’t repeat it for more than three times. Or I get super duper annoyed. Like I want to shake you or just punch you in the face. You can’t make me repeat something I’ve said for more than two or three times. It puts my mood off.

 

2.  Asking me things and not believing my answer.

 

Like srsly? Why ask me in the first place? If you don’t trust me then ask somebody else. Don’t ask me.

 

3.  People who makes plans to do things together but never goes through at the end of the day

 

So like, everyone, right?

 

4.  People who thinks they have to lie to me

 

I would very much prefer for you to just tell me the truth, thank you very much. It would help show your remorse and that you have good intentions. I’m very accepting especially if you tell me the truth. I like honesty!

 

5.  Freeloaders with faces as thick as their asses

 

This is especially at the office. Like, it’s okay if you don’t have any money to contribute to the team lunches. Tell us and we’ll understand. Don’t make it seem like you’re not like that but you totally are. Like, I also don’t know what I’m saying. Hahaha. This specific one is mostly an annoyance to a specific person. I don’t like unfair people.

 

 

 

Day 6 – My views on mainstream music

Day 6 – Your views on mainstream music

 

I honestly don’t know what to say about mainstream music. What exactly is considered as mainstream music?

So according to urbandictionary.com, mainstream music is music that’s usually on the radio, Top 40 and is well known to the general public.

All right. Well that clears it up, doesn’t it?

Hmm, so mainstream music would be One Direction, Drake, Rihanna, The Chainsmokers, Ariana Grande, etc.?

I would think that music in the past year is much better than the previous years. Of course, there are still some that focuses on T&A’s but it’s much better now. It has meaning even though it’s not what it’s like before. I guess it focuses more on the beats and bass rather than the message. Compared to the previous years though, I think music is getting better again.

I only started listening to mainstream music when I started my job at Alorica. I focused my music genre on Big Bang before so it’s good to rediscover this stuff.

It’s catchy and all.

Day 5 – Things you want to say to an ex

Day 5 – Things you want to say to an ex

 

I don’t have an ex lol. I haven’t even considered other people I dated B.M. (Before Mc) as exes. But the challenge did not really specify ex-boyfriend. So I’ll be writing to an ex-almost.

Fuck you. It was one thing to stain what we almost had but it’s entirely different when you betrayed my trust. I trusted you with personal things about me. What hurts is the fact that I thought that maybe, even if we couldn’t take whatever what we had to the next level, you would still have some sort of respect in me. That you would still value the friendship we had. That was enough for me but you proved that wrong last week.

You are by far, the most vile human being I have ever met. I’ve met a lot of people but you had no conscience. I just want to shake you and ask you what the hell is wrong with you.

I just expected more from you as a friend. That’s it.

I can accept a lot of things but what you did was too much. It just showed me how wrong I am for trusting you. How I should’ve trusted myself when my gut was telling me that you are someone I was supposed to stay away from.

I gave you the benefit of the doubt and you fucked with that. You fucked with the people that gave you that. Try fixing yourself for a change. Like really, really fixing yourself. I hate you so damn much. But I don’t care anymore. You are just so, so awful. Rot in hell and I hope karma gets you good.

Day 4 – Bullet Your Day

It was a good day to bullet lol

  • I slept around 12:30AM
  • Woke up at 3AM
  • Arrived at the office 16 minutes late
  • Had 2 surveys, one of it was a negative one
  • Our team had a potluck. I brought spring rolls. We had pasta, liempo, ice cream, cakes!!
  • We ate again. Lol
  • Teammates and I ended up having an after work session at Centris Walk. 
  • Still here at Centris Walk after 7 hours lol

    Update at 7:54PM

    • Here at Whitewall Coffee shop at Centris where I always order Carbonara
    • Just found a Carbonara buddy today
    • Guess what? Carbonara here at Whitewall is currently not available -.-
    • We’re waiting for le teammates

      Update at 10:00 PM

      • Teammates are still not here
      • Mayonnaise is playing here at Centris
      • We want to go to Cloud 9
      • Still alive but lacks sleep

        Update at 2:42AM 03/26/2017:

        • teammates finally got around at 10:30
        • We had no where to chill
        • We chose Karaoke Republic
        • It was dang crazy and fun
        • I just got home
        • Good night!

        Day 3 – A book I love

        Ahhh. Where do I start? When will I end? Lol

        Day 3 – A book you love

         

        Ahhh. Where do I start? When will I end? Lol

        I met someone a couple of months ago and it was my first time sitting down with this person. Reading books excites me more than shopping or just plain going out. So expectedly, I asked this person about what books he loves. He mentioned some philosophy books that I have never heard of before and says he’s not into the YA kind.

        I’m 20 years old and other than mystery books by PJ Tracy and Lena Diaz, I pretty much stick to Young Adult novels. I have preferences on the genre but YA all the way!

        So this person, a year younger than me, said he didn’t like YA. That was okay for me. I could roll with that. I’m open to learning new things and I ain’t afraid of philosophy books. (lol!) But then, he said something that was so much of a deal breaker. Like I seriously cannot look at him after that. I even considered leaving right at that moment.

        He said and I quote, “I especially don’t like Harry Potter. It’s a waste of time.”

        *silence* I seriously wanted to use seven books of awesomeness to choke the guy. Suffice to say, I didn’t see him again.

        So yes, a book that I always love talking about and I will always love are the Harry Potter books by JK Rowling.

        I won’t probably be able to enumerate all the reasons why but my life was molded to the lessons I learned from reading the books.

        It all started with a reading assignment when I was in 5th grade. We were supposed to read a book. No specific ones and submit a book report about it. So my aunt and I went to a bookstore and I bought the thickest book I found.

        Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

        Yes, the first time I read the books, it wasn’t in the chronological order. (I’ve read for a hundred times now xD)

        It’s like the escape to Hogwarts from every book was what I needed. It sparked a light in my mind and showed me how imaginative and creative I can be. (Reason #1)

        Lessons from the books does not need a deep analysis but it also wasn’t just there. I can’t put it into words, exactly, but I live my life largely influenced by what I’ve read and learned from the books.

        From the friendship of the Golden Trio to Draco Malfoy’s upbringing. Let me try to enumerate some…

        • Real friends will go through anything with you.
        • Darkness never wins.
        • Some people didn’t want to be bad. They just didn’t know any other way. (ILYSM Draco Malfoy!)
        • Love always wins.
        • It’s okay to be different because real friends will accept who you are.
        • If you love someone, you can go through lengths to show it to them. (Always!!! *cries for Snape*)
        • Parents will do anything for their child. (Praises to Narcissa, Molly & Lily!)
        • There are many types of bravery. (Hi Neville & Snape!)
        • Loved ones never really leave us.

        Phew! I’m sure it’s not just that. There are many, many more. I love how the things they experienced on their extraordinary lives, we get to apply to our good old Muggle lives.

        I can rave about this series all day.

        Other books I love and learned a lot from:

        • Tuesdays with Morrie
        • One Hundred Names
        • The Notebook
        • A Walk to Remember
        • The Female of the Species
        • Perks of Being a Wallflower
        • My Not So Perfect Life
        • PS I Love You
        • Falling into Place
        • All the Bright Places